Last Time

[Lemon Zinger]

I am first of all, SO sorry... Absolutely totally sorry. I know it's two months now... two months with hardly a word from me and I'm sure it's probably a bit annoying.
I have a lot of explaining to do I'm sure.
First, about June I started knowing about a move. Mind you, I'm nineteen, old enough to move away from parents if I so choose. And I really don't want to go with them. So for awhile, I am thinking I'm gonna get stuck in my car or goodness knows where. Still is a possibility.
Anyway, second, as you know my grandma died and now the reality has hit and hit HARD. When I need her support the most it seems she's not there. It hurts... I'm now teary, great...
Third, mom just fell ill. Possibly very seriously. I'm worried, stressed, barely sleeping, and I seem to be sick every week now...
Anyway, I know you probably all hate me. Can't blame you. I don't like it either when an admin suddenly drops out with no word.
And I left this in MM didn't I? You have my permission to virtually slap me/shun me... Totally understand...
Flameh, I owe you a MASS of apologies. I have been a total jerk to you lately and I apologize. I told you I wouldn't suddenly drop away again and I did... I'm so sorry. I should've taken five minutes and talked to you. I'm so so so so so sorry!
To the rest of the staff, I owe you more apologies then I can ever begin to say. I make a terrible friend and not only that, but I have been a terrible part of the team. I respect that there is no chance whatsoever I can be trusted. I don't even ask for that, because I know full well what will happen.
Anyway, I am asking for nothing, though a bit of forgiveness would be nice, but I won't demand it and I ask for no fights over this. I take full responsibility... I don't plan on returning full time which leaves you with a choice, that I ask is handled by the staff, all of you. You can either delete my account and make it clear you never want to hear from me (as a site, if anyone wants to contact me personally: [e-mail]) again. Otherwise, if you keep it, I would pop on as a guest, say hi, give updates, possibly do a little unserious Rping in a chatbox with you guys if you want.

I honestly miss you, love you, respect and admire you all.
-Spirit/Night/LZ

[.:Lion:.]

In my mind there's nothing to forgive, Spirit. We all love you and care for you and understand when life takes over. I think of SP like a family, so you will always have my understanding. You've had a rough couple of months, and I'm sure I speak for all of us when I say that we are all wishing you well. I will keep you in my prayers I would love for you to pop up and give us updates. Personally I feel like you're a sister, so I want to hear from you and see what's going on. You can email me any time. I love you Spirit and I hope that everything works out in the end *bear hugs*

[flameh]

Spirit, there is nothing to be forgiven for. You have no idea how many times I've dropped off the face of the earth on rp sites, it happens, I understand. I knew you had a lot going on in your life, and that you most likely wouldn't be returning full time, but there's no way I'm deleting you. You are always a member here, you're part of this family, and a sister to me.

I'll keep you and your family in my prayers. I hope your mother gets better.

I love you <3 <3 -flamingflyingtacklehugs-

- Flameh

[Magicheart]

With everything going on, we would have deleted your account if you were putting us before your personal life! Please try to eat regularly and get some sleep though, it will help you clear your head and make you feel much better. It sounds like right now your family especially needs you to be healthy. If you aren't in school yet and want to do some college, you can get a lot of assistance to live on a campus. Just thought I would throw that out there.

Let us know what we can do to help. We'll just keep in mind that you may be in and out on the site. We've been trying to hold the fort as best as we can without you, but you were definitely doing a better job I think! I think we've all realized how organized and diligent you've been without you on here regularly...

Take care, there are definitely people it matters to.
*hugs*
~Magic

[ρυяє]

I know we are not as close friends as you are with Lion and Flameh, but the fact is that you gained my respect a long time ago and through it all you've kept it. There is nothing to forgive as life tends to play these sick games with us and pull us away from people. I'm sorry for your loss, LZ, we're all here for you, still, if you need us.

It would be a waste to delete your account and ban you forever, for not only would we be losing one of our best admins, but we would be losing a dear family member.

You are welcome to come and go as you deem necessary, for we know you are busy.

Take care LZ.

We're still here.

- Pure

[Lemon Zinger]

TY, all of you, you have no idea what it means to me...

I might get more involved as time goes on, but for now, I can't promise anything.

Lion: First, and foremost, yes, we're sisters at heart You have been with us for a long time and have probably seen the best and worst of me, but to have your love and understanding means SO much! Thank you! *huggles*

Flameh: I know I've talked to you personally after I posted this, but I want to reiterate my sincere love and gratitude. You are an amazing friend and sister and I'm so fortunate to know you. Thank you. *huggles*

Magic: NOO offense intended by this remark, but your something of a... well, I guess an aunt-ish kind of person for me. Or an older sister. You're the one I can count on to lend me RL advice and encouragement, with a dose of love. Thank you. I haven't got an older sister, and I lost a lot of the extended family I have in the divorce, so that means a lot to me. *hugs*

Pure: Put as kindly as possible - I gained your respect? And of course I need you guys!!! Why do you think I can't tear myself away forever ever? You guys are my family, my friends, and I'm VERY blessed to have you.

[Lemon Zinger]

Couple other MINOR things: Does anyones see or know of something with coding/colors/designs that needs fixed? I can't swear I'll do everything, but please, if you want to note something speak up!

[ρυяє]

Now that you mention it... that DID come kinda off... .-.

Let's just leave it at the "I respect you" and "I'm glad you're back" lines.

I look forward to having you around again, my friend.

[☾ϟnightϟ☽]

Pish Posh. Who wouldn't want to hear from you? You are an epic person LZ. Fun as ever to talk to... ouo

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