Post by bhuvana on Feb 20, 2011 9:56:47 GMT -5
Old pictures on my wall,
tear 'em down, watch 'em fall.
The sound of the tape tearing,
it's what I have been fearing.
Tears stream down my face,
I can't keep up in this race.
It often crosses my mind;
death, the irreversable fine.
Why'd you do it?
Let her rule you through it?
You're your own being,
but instead, she's your queen.
If I controlled the future and past,
I'd go back in time real fast.
The day she asked "Do you want to go?"
I'd stop and quickly shake my head no.
When I met you, I wish I had walked away,
because life has been Hell since that day.
Like a reverse storm, the rainbows came first,
but then the winds blew, and the clouds burst.
Why'd you do it?
Let her rule you through it?
You're your own being,
but instead, she's your queen.
I've come to the conclusion that I'm not worth your time.
With that said, you sure as Hell aren't worth mine.
So I'm doing what I should've done that day,
I'm turning, and I'm walking away
tear 'em down, watch 'em fall.
The sound of the tape tearing,
it's what I have been fearing.
Tears stream down my face,
I can't keep up in this race.
It often crosses my mind;
death, the irreversable fine.
Why'd you do it?
Let her rule you through it?
You're your own being,
but instead, she's your queen.
If I controlled the future and past,
I'd go back in time real fast.
The day she asked "Do you want to go?"
I'd stop and quickly shake my head no.
When I met you, I wish I had walked away,
because life has been Hell since that day.
Like a reverse storm, the rainbows came first,
but then the winds blew, and the clouds burst.
Why'd you do it?
Let her rule you through it?
You're your own being,
but instead, she's your queen.
I've come to the conclusion that I'm not worth your time.
With that said, you sure as Hell aren't worth mine.
So I'm doing what I should've done that day,
I'm turning, and I'm walking away
I joined a church and I thought my life had become perfect. My pastor and I were the best of friends and everyone seemed to love me. For once, I felt as if I actually belonged somewhere, was wanted. But after a bit over half a year of joy, my pastor's wife spoke her paranoia. She believed I was going to steal her 46 year old husband (mind you, I am 17 years old). Instead of the pastor being honest and saying we were innocent, he submissed to his wife with fear. He tells me he wishes he never got married, so that he could be friends with whoever he wanted, but he won't tell his wife to back off. So, that is where this poem came from, a broken heart that barely beats in my chest.
But I wrote that MONTHS ago...I switched to a different church and have started new. My heart has began to heal, and the wounds still present have stitches in them to speed up the process. I am happy again, which I felt I would never say again when I was writing "Welcome to the End". So I ask everyone is tolerant if I have either a fit of anger or sorrow. The best reaction is to simply ignore me.....but I have had my life under control for some time now, so I don't see any outburst occuring =]